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Should Have Kissed You - Chapter 34 

Casey’s P.O.V.

“I seriously don’t know what’s with him, Case. He’s been like that since you left.” Niall said, putting the can of beer down. We’ve been talking for how many hours already, decoding Liam’s weird moves. He’s been acting pretty queer lately, starting with that “I’ve got a date with mom” thingy. It turns out he just went straight to their flat and slept.

“Should I be bothered?” I asked nervously. “I mean, you said he’s been like that since he——“

“Hey, calm down.” He laughed, shaking his head. “You’ve got nothing to worry about. Just give him time and space. I know, Liam. Let the guy have his space.”

“For what?”

“I really don’t know. I’m just running out of things to say.” He stood up, fixed his clothes, and looked at me. “I’ve got to go, Case. Going to the studio. New album on the way!!”

I giggled, stood up and hugged him. He tightened the hug; rubbing my back in circles. “Everything is going to be okay. In the mean time, focus on your studies.”He stepped back and smiled.

“I will. Thank you big time.” I smiled back. Niall and I are really close. He’s this person that I can tell my secrets to. I mean, there are things that I haven’t told Ella that I shared to Niall. He has this charm that just wants you to tell everything to him; from your period to your fears and everything. “Good luck.”

“Will do.” He kissed my cheek and stormed out of the room. I sighed and looked at the mess we’ve created. I started picking up the cans and one by one, I threw it at the bin. My head started to throb when someone opened the door. Ella, with a book covering her face, closed the door and sat on the sofa.

“Where have you been?” I asked, wiping the table in front of her. She placed the book beside her and exhaled heavily. “What’s the problem?”

“Pretty tired. Some girls wanted a picture with me so I stopped then they called their friends and I really don’t know what was happening. Then one of them said, “you’re Zayn’s girlfriend, right?” and I was like “wha—-wha—-what?” and they were like, “It’s okay. We don’t hate you. As long as Zayn’s happy, we’re happy.”. I didn’t know what to do. I was really shocked after that so I decided to buy a book to help me relax.”

I laughed out loud, sitting down beside her. She raised her eyebrows, confused with what I just did. I sighed and touched her shoulder. “You need to get used to it, you know. It’s been weeks since you guys told the world you’re dating!”.

“I know, I know. It was just… weird. I was expecting for these girls to stab me, gouge my eyes o—-“

“You really must stop watching horror movies.”

“You think so?”

“I know so.”

She took a deep breath and took off her coat. “I really need to get advices from you.”

“Me? What do you mean?”

“It’s like you’re used to all these directioners.”

“Yeah, I’m used to interacting with them that I ran away from them.” I answered, making her laugh. “Besides, they don’t bug me that much. I am nobody.”

“Nobody? Really? Like you have your own fanbase. They even call themselves Caselettes.”

My eyes almost popped out. What the?! Caselettes?! Isn’t that some kind of a hipster girl group or what? I haven’t been checking my Twitter since December. Ella reached out for her laptop and opened her account. “Look.”

Holy…. It’s real. There are so many accounts with Caselettes as their name and some of them even have my pictures as their avatar or whatever you call that. I looked at Ella with my eyes wide open and she just laughed. “Don’t fret. Mine is worse. They call me Ellatites.”

Now, it was my turn to laugh. She shook her head and shut her laptop off. Our lives are getting ridiculous.

 

 

“Hey, I missed you!”

I turned around and saw Kim running towards me. She pulled me for a hug. “I missed you! Wow, you definitely lose weight!”

“That’s what Harry also said. Anyway, how are you?”

“I’m okay. Really okay.” I replied, smiling weakly at her. She smiled back and squeezed my hand. We started to walk. Classes were finally done. Ella didn’t go to school because she was sick and Zayn was babysitting her. Kim and I parted ways when we reached the gate of our university. Luckily for me, I don’t get mobbed by paparazzi and fangirls here. I was holding my cup of coffee when suddenly, someone bumped in to me. The hot liquid splashed to him. His shirt was soaked with the coffee. I started wiping the coffee on his shirt.

“I’m sorry. I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to!” I apologized, still wiping the liquid with my hands. The person suddenly touched my hands and said, “It’s okay, Case.”.

I looked up and saw Liam looking at me. He let go of my hands and smiled sheepishly. I gulped and I can feel myself sweating profusely. What is he doing here? Why is he here?

“What are you doing here?” I asked, picking up the plastic cup and threw it at the trashcan. He laughed and shook his head.

“Can’t I surprise my friend by visiting in her university?”

Friend… Oh wait, he’s talking about me. “No, it’s not that. You could’ve just texted me or something!”

“Then that wouldn’t be a surprise, right?” He chuckled, putting his arm around my shoulder; pulling me closer to his chest. I missed this. I missed us. “I just want to be with you today.”

Damn it, Liam. You’re leading me on again! I looked at him. I was about to reject his invitation when he suddenly pinched my nose and shook my head. “Before you say no, I just want to say I already rented 2 bicycles in the park. If you don’t come with me, I’ll have to ride those 2 bicycles simultaneously and that would totally kill me. Plus, you’ll be wasting my money. And lastly, if you even say no, I’ll still drag you.”

I was trying not to laugh but I gave in anyway. I heard him chuckle and he held my hand. We started to walk towards his car which was parked 2 blocks away and yes, we were holding each other’s hand. I was blushing so much that I could feel myself face heating up. Liam was looking at me from time to time; checking if I was alright because I was just silent. Upon reaching the park, a guy gave us the bicycles. We started hitting the pedals. He got ahead of me, laughing like a child. Enjoy this moment, Case. Just don’t give meaning to it. I pedaled faster, getting ahead of him. I heard him shout and that made me laugh more. Suddenly, he was at my left side. He held my left hand and both of us slowed down. He looked at me and smiled. “I missed you. Do you know that?”

“No.” I replied, biting my lower lip. Could he please just stop? He’s giving me false hopes and I really don’t like it. First, he left when I arrived in London. Then, he’s going to tell me he wants to spend the day with me. And now, he’s saying he missed me? I really don’t get him! At all!

“Well, I did. And I’m glad you’re back.” He answered back, pinching my cheek.

 

The day went by so fast. I was so glad that things were already back to normal. We were singing Miley’s song Party in the USA in his car. We were on our way home after eating our dinner in a pizza parlor. He stopped in front our apartment. We went out of the car, laughing. I sighed and touched his arm. Did he just stiffen? “Thanks, Liam. I had fun. I had a blast. It was the best day of my life.”

“Well, I’m glad that the best day of your life was spent with me.” He smiled and moved closer to me. He was about to kiss my cheek when he laughed. “Looks like people are very eager to know what’s happening.”

I looked back and saw Zayn and Ella waving at us, their faces were literally plastered on the window. Liam and I laughed and shook our heads. I looked at Liam and sighed. “Anyway, I need to go now.” He said, holding my shoulders. “Be a good girl. Have a peaceful slumber.”

“I will. Be a good boy also. Have a great night.”

“It’s already great.”He said, patting my shoulder. I kissed him on the cheek and he grinned. “Bye.”

“Bye, Liam.” I said as I waved at him. He waved back and went inside of his car. In a matter of seconds, he was already gone. When I reached the room, Zayn and Ella were smiling like idiots at me.

“You guys are really made for each other.” I said to them. The three of us sat down. They were teasing me; saying that Liam and I could make a great couple. “We’re just friends, you know that.”

“We know but you 2 don’t.” Zayn replied, chuckling.

“What do you mean by that?” I asked, taking off my shoes.

“Nothing.” Ella said. The two of them laughed again. These two are really losing their sanity. I decided to take a bath. When I went out of the bathroom, they were laughing again. Shaking my head, I went to my room and decided to check my Twitter account. When I clicked my mentions, I saw tweets from Directioners and they even tagged Liam. What’s happening?

@yotheremalik @CaseOfficial @real_liam_payne you guys are just the sweetest!!!! :”>

Sweetest? What? I clicked the tweet and I almost passed out when I saw what the ruckus was about.

@real_liam_payne Just had the best day of my life!! Thank you, @caseofficial! The best, just the best!! :D

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I actually thought of splitting this chapter into 2 but I thought, “No. You deserved better. I made you wait for 5 months so here it is!!”. Hope you like it. Thanks to those who waited. I’m deeply sorry!! I love you all. You can talk to me at @yotheremalik. Yep, I follow back there. Have fun reading this long chapter!!


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Should Have Kissed You- Chapter 33.2 

I am back in the place where it all begun. The place where I had my heart broken and the place where, I hope, it will end. My yellow coat was shining due to the sun that was greeting me a great stay here in UK. You may think I’m going crazy but… Well, there’s a possibility. Nah, just kidding. I finally found my luggage. Dragging it, I started to walk, attracting the attention of the people who were around me. It must be my clothes. Who in their right mind would wear a coat during a hot day?

I mean..


“You’re Casey Arcales, aren’t you?” A teenage girl, who was about 16, approached me and grinned sweetly.


“Uhm, yes.. Why?”


I asked, biting my lower lip. I was out of the country just for few weeks and when I came back, I’ll find people.. I mean a person, coming up to me? I know it’s kind of normal but something’s bugging me.


“I’m Chloe Stanford. Such a big fan of yours, Case.” Her eyes lightened up as she was jumping up and down with pure delight. The scene I am witnessing right now is just a proof that world is really about to end. Me? Idol? Her? Fan? What kind of drug had she taken? I’m not popular. I’m still a student. And my friends?


My friends!! Oh wait.. Right. My friends are the mighty and gorgeous members of One Direction. “Can I touch you?” I almost snorted when she said that. How come the guys can take this kind of weirdness? I mean, c’mon.. I was about to roll on the floor (kidding. I don’t want to make a scene) when she saw her hesitating to poke me. I poked her instead.


“OMG, GIRLS!! SHE TOUCHED ME!!” She shrieked and her minions, I suppose, ran towards us and me? I escaped. I effing ran away from the fangirls but unluckily, they were right behind me.


“CASE!! QUICK. GET INSIDE!!” That voice. I searched for the owner of the voice and there he was… He was wearing a violet shirt and sunglasses.


“NIALL!!”


I ran towards his car, a red ferrari, which he informed me that he bought during Christmas, and I hugged him tightly.


“No time for the hugs and everything. Here are the delirious fangirls! C’mon, Case! Get inside of the car if you don’t want to be crushed to pieces!” He warned, pushing me to the car. My head hit the door when he closed it and I screamed. He got in and sat on the driver’s seat, revving the engine to life. I thought the girls were about to catch us but luckily, he started to drive and I sighed heavily, massaging my head.


“You leprechaun!!” I smacked his arm with the back of my hand. “The door hit my head! I think I’m having an internal hemmorhage!”


“First thing’s first! Nice to see you again, Case. Second, ouch. You, I assume, gained weight. Lastly, I’m sorry about that. I’m just following orders.”


“Someone ordered you to hit my head with the door of the car? Do you really want to kill me? I still want to live, you know! I still want to know how to—”.


I stopped when I saw him smiling. Nothing’s even funny! Death is a serious matter! “Why are you laughing?” I shot him a deadly look but he just shook his head.


“Tell me!”.


“Still the Casey I befriended!” He laughed, stopping behind a car and I noticed that the light was red. “No one ordered me that, of course.”


“You did that because you wanted to?! You are a jerk!”.


“You’re paranoid, Case. No one wanted and wants to hit your head with ANYTHING. Not us. Not me. And certainly, not you.”. He chuckled, maneuvering the steering wheel. “I just want you to remain unharmed when you get to your apartment and that was also their order.”.


“Their?” I asked, running my fingers to my hair.


“Yes. Their. Zayn, Kim, Harry, Ella, Raika, Louis, Eleanor and Liam. The gang.”. He answered shortly, killing the engine as we arrived in the apartment.


“CAAAAAASE!!!” Both of us went out of the car and I saw them.. The people I was skyping with days ago or even hours ago. Zayn, who shaved his mustache, hugged me first. He lifted me and put me down swiftly.


“You definitely gained weight!” He chuckled, wrapping his arm around my neck and he scruffled my hair.


“Casey!! I missed you so so so much!!!” Ella, who squeaked, hugged me tightly, too. She stepped backward and she raised her eyebrows. “Wow. You gained weight! You stopped taking bel—”.


I nudged her and she, fortunately, stopped talking and covered her mouth with her hand. Harry wiggled his nose and started stroking his chin. “Stopped taking what?”.


“Not your business, Haz.”. I replied sulkly, rolling my eyes at him. He nodded slowly.


“I get it.” He said with a smirk on his face. We finally decided to enter the apartment but Styles jumped infront of us.


“Stopped taking what?”.


“Move over.” I warned him but he just snorted. “I’ll tell you later. Just. Move. Over.”.


“Promise?”. He pouted and blinked for how many times.


I sighed heavily and closed my eyes. “Promise. Now, move.”.There was a triumphant grin that appeared on his face and that made my blood boil. Louis carried my bag for me. Asking where Eleanor is, he just said something about school. I opened the door and saw how clean the room was. You see, Ella doesn’t bother to clean this apartment unless I give her a lecture. Maybe, the real Ella was abducted by aliens. NOOO.


“I cleaned it for you.”. Liam smiled sheepishly and I almost lost my balance because my legs wobbled. See. Nothing has changed. He’s still the same Liam James Payne I know. “Hope I.. I mean my gesture.. made you smile.”.


I beamed involuntarily and nodded. “Of course, it did Liam. Thanks. I appreciate it.”.


“I smell three letters..” Harry spoke up and they laughed.


“Oh, shut up curls.” I replied, sitting on the chair. “So, fill me in. What happened while I was away?”.


“Well..”, Niall sat next to me, resting his legs on mine and his head on his hands, “we did nothing, to be honest.”.


“Even breathing?” I gasped exaggeratedly while widening my eyes.


“Really funny, Case.”. Haz rolled his eyes and sat on the floor. “Hey, I just noticed something.”.


“What is it?” Liam took a sip of his coffee and placed the cup on the table.


“Case got fat.” Harry answered, standing up, and he moved towards my direction. “Blimey, Case. Are you pregnant?”.


“Haz, can you do me a favor?”, I exhaled, closing my eyes.


“Sure.” He pinched my arms, mesmerizing them.


“Confine yourself in an asylum and never get out of there, please?”. The gang laughed.


God, I missed these morons.


“I am not out of my mind, Ms. Arcales.”. He smirked, scruffling my hair. “You got uglier.”.


“What are you trying to say? That I was ugly last month?”.


“I am glad you understood.”.


“Still a jerk.”. I snarled. I suddenly felt Niall’s hands massaging my back.


“Chillax, Case. Harry is just being honest.”. Niall joined in. They laughed again and I just rolled my eyes.


“Yes, I was just being candid. Thank you, Nialler.”.Harry beamed and stood beside Liam. “She got uglier, right?”.


There was a moment of awkward silence. Liam was looking at me and even though I am kind of embarrassed to admit, I was also looking at him (more like oogling, actually).


“Not a chance. On contrary, she got prettier.” He showed his signature grin. My cheeks turned red and I know he noticed it.


“Well, thank you Liam for lifting up my confidence again.”. I hid my face in my hair.


“You liar. You’re just saying that because you’re madly inlove with her.”. Harry snickered and Liam’s face turned to red. After how many seconds, he chuckled.


“Maybe I am. Maybe not. I just like being honest.” He smiled and stood up. “I have to go. Date with mom. Later, guys!!”.


He went out of the room, leaving us. Leaving me clueless, leaving me confused. What was that about?



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Should Have Kissed You- Chapter 33.2 

Chapter 33.2

“Merry Christmas, Case!” Ella’s face popped on my screen. I smiled back at her, pressing my hands to each other. Zayn was beside her, waving at me.

“Merry Christmas to the both of you, too!”

“You didn’t warn me that your friend is a loud sleeper.” Zayn smirked, putting his arm around Ella’s shoulder. She punched him gently on the chest. He let out a small “ouch” while massaging the spot where her hand landed. “I’m just jesting, babe. That was so painful.”

“You deserve it.” She rolled her eyes and looked at me again. “So, how is it there?”

“It’s good. Relatives spent Christmas with us, of course. Friends were looking for you. They’re freaking out because you’re dating Zayn and stuff.” I sighed, tying my hair to a ponytail. “Felix was here.”

“You mean Felix Felix?” She asked, her eyes widening. Zayn looked at her and back to me again. I bit my lip, nodding. “Oh goodness, Case! What happened?”

“You know..” I whispered, shrugging.

“Wait, wait. Who’s Felix Felix? Is that like Phillip Phillips or something?” Zayn interrupted, scratching his neck. Ella looked at him, patting his back while shaking his head. “Who is it, then?”

“Should we tell him, Case?” She asked as she winked at me cheekily. I snorted, placing my hand on my mouth.

“Well, I don’t know”, I replied lowly, rubbing chin, pretending to be in deep thoughts, “you haven’t told me about the secret yet so..”

“I’ll tell you when you get back here! I promise! Now tell me!” He said excitedly. Ella smirked and I giggled, looking at Zayn’s expression.

“He hates secrets.” Ella explained, wiggling her eyebrows. “Okay. So, you see Zayn..”

“See what?”

“He’s my former suitor.” I answered, nodding my head. Well actually, he isn’t. He’s still my suitor.  Apparently, my parents told him that I was coming back and he decided to pay me a visit. As if it was actually compulsory but being the good girl I am, I entertained and talk to him. I don’t have any plan to tell them to the boys though because there’s no chance for us to work out.

“Former? Really?” Ella asked sassily. Zayn was just listening to us but he was probably in a trance or something because his eyes were blank.

“Okay. Maybe, he’s a current suitor. I don’t have any plan to accept his love, though. I rejected him two nights ago but he won’t stop bugging me!”

“What’s the problem? He’s gorgeous as hell, rich, popular in our school, student body’s president, talented, responsible, sweet and smart.” Ella pointed out, making me smile.

“That’s the point.”

“What point?”

“He’s too busy with thins and I just don’t see us being together. There’s no..”

“Spark?” Zayn smirked, cutting me off. I nodded gently as he shifted position, putting his leg on the top of his other leg. “That’s cool. Maybe, he’s really not the one.”

“Maybe.”

“Hey, Ella. It’s 1pm. Mom  said that we have to go to—”

“Oh shit. Yeah, I forgot. Case, Zayn and I have to go.” Ella said, reaching for her bag. “See you in 2 weeks!”

“Yeah, see you too! Bye. Take care. I love you both.”

They both nodded and smiled as I closed my laptop. Going back to bed, I decided to rest first before doing anything else. I never thought that I still have feelings for him.


Should Have Kissed You- Chapter 33.1 

Chapter 33.1

Liam’s P.O.V.

“Still not done with it?” Niall peeked over at my shoulder, trying to get a clear view of what I’m doing. I immediately covered the paper with my hand, giving him a dark look. He raised his arms innocently.

“This is not your business anymore.”

“But I was the one who gave you the idea.”

“I know.. I know..” I said, putting my hand on his head. “Now, get off. I’m trying to concentrate here.”

“Can I just have a peek?” He pouted, sitting beside me. I instantly get a hold of the paper and put it out of his reach. He stretched his arms as he was reaching for the paper, grunting and making some weird sounds at the same time.

“Nialler.. No, just no.”

He stopped reaching for the sheet and folded his arms across his chest, thinking deeply. I raised my eyebrows as I rested my arm on the couch. I turned to him when I heard him sigh. He was about to stand up when he started tickling my sides – my weak spots.

“Stop that! St..st..stop!” I said in between laughs, trying to slap his hands away. His other hand continued to itch my side while his one hand was reaching for the paper again. I pushed him playfully away from me. “Stop, okay? I’ll tell you some lines but don’t laugh.”

“Of course, I won’t.” He said, sitting beside me again. His eyes were full of excitement and I rolled my eyes in defeat, sighing softly. I placed the paper infront of me and touched the pen I used a while ago. Tapping it on the paper slowly, I started to sing the lines I just came up with.


I keep playing inside my head
All that you said to me
I lie awake just to convince myself
This wasn’t just a dream


I looked up at him and I realized that he was actually listening to me, grasping every word that I muttered. He clapped slowly, nodding. He stood up and got his guitar out of its case. He started strumming and humming at the same time. After how many minutes, he finally looked at me and smiling.

“Now, let’s put some tune to the song.”

“I’m not even done yet.”

“That doesn’t matter.” He said, dismissing me quickly. I breathed heavily, running my hand through my hair. He shifted to a more comfortable position, the side of the guitar was on his lap and his fingers were placed alternately on the strings. My eyes were actually following his fingers which were moving rapidly. I touched his hands, shutting my eyes.

“How.. can.. I.. sing,” I faked a smile, “if you’re just playing with your fingers?”

“Oh. I’m sorry. I was just.. oh well, okay. Let’s get it on.” He said distractedly as he placed his fingers on some random places.

“How do you even know the tune anyway? I mean, I’m just getting started with this.”

“You sang the song a while ago and luckily for you, I listened to the rhythm.”

Sighing, I started to sing the song again as he played the guitar. To be honest, it was actually great. Niall was smiling as he was playing the instrument swiftly. I ended the first verse with a huge grin on my face while tapping his back.

“You’re the best.”

“I know.” He chuckled, putting the guitar down on the floor. “So, any idea for the next verse?”

I pursed my lips, wiggling my eyebrows. I actually don’t have thoughts on the next verse yet. My mind stopped working yesterday when Casey left London. I’ve been racking my brain since last night but no luck. Niall grabbed the paper from me and held the pen.

“Just describe what you feel about her.” He said, looking at me intently while waiting for my reply.

My feelings about her? I don’t know. It’s kind of mixed and people won’t understand. I love her and everything but something’s stopping me. No, it’s not the past and Danielle. I already moved on. I regret fighting with Zayn because he was actually right. I don’t know how to stand firm. I’m a weakling. And most importantly, I regret shouting a line to him. I don’t even want to mention what line it is because when I always remember that, I just want to kill myself right there and then.

I shrugged, shaking my head. “I don’t know.”

“Do you think I can add things on this song? I can’t, Li. I don’t know what you’re feeling right now.”

I ran my hand to my hair, scratching my neck with the other one. I am not good when it comes to composing songs and Niall is the one who is good with this. I’m a newbie in this field and.. I really don’t know what to do.

“Just tell me what you’re feeling right now.” He spoke up, smiling encouragingly at me.

“I feel down right now. I think I wasted my chance. The moment I left her alone.. I can’t forget about it. Her reaction when I stopped.. I was just,” I sighed, my hands pressed together, “dumb”.

A small smile appeared on his face as he scribbled something down. After how many minutes, he read it out loud.

“Cause you were right here and I should have taken the chance but..” He looked up at me, pouting.

“But what?” I asked, staring at him.

“I actually don’t know. I don’t know what you’re feeling right so you need to add lines to this verse.” He replied, handing me the pen and paper. I was hesitating at first but instantly grabbed them from him even though I still don’t have anything to add.

“Now, what?” I asked sheepishly.

“Just write down what stopped you from kissing her.”

“I don’t even know why.”

“Oh, really? You don’t?” He asked, raising his eyebrows.

“Well, I was… scared?”

“I got so scared and I lost the moment again.” Niall bopped his head while beaming. “That’s really good. You should write it down.”

Rolling my eyes, I wrote down what he said and sang the second verse again. Not bad, I thought to myself. Niall reached for his guitar and started strumming again. The day passed by with me, squeezing the juices of my brain and Niall helping me with the composition.


Guys, I’m planning to delete this account because I’m going to be a college student on June 4 already. 

DON’T WORRY, I’M STILL A DIRECTIONER.

I’LL JUST END SHOULD HAVE KISSED YOU AND GIVE YOUR HEART A BREAK.

THANKS TO THOSE WHO’VE BEEN SUPPORTING ME SINCE THE BEGINNING.

I JUST HAVE NO TIME FOR WRITING, I THINK. :| <//3

AND GUYS….

I said I was just planning.


Should Have Kissed You- Chapter 32 

Casey’s P.O.V.

“So, how are things going with you and Zayn?” I asked, putting down the mug of hot chocolate on the table. Rubbing my hands on my jacket, Ella smiled at me and nodded.

“We’re fine.”

After talking to Niall 2 weeks ago, Ella confessed to me that she and Zayn fought because of the fact that Zayn didn’t text her for how many days. I told her about the scene that I witnessed and she immediately called him. He explained everything to her and after that, they reconciled. Yes. I also think that it was fast but I can’t do anything about it. That’s how love works.

“You’re still leaving the country?” She asked, tapping her fingers on the couch. I nodded and rested my legs on the table, arms crossed against my chest. The weather outside was still affecting me even though I already wrapped myself with thick clothes.

“I have to.”

“I told mom and dad that I’m not going home for the vacation.”

“Reasons?” I smiled cheekily, touching the mug again. Putting it on my lips, I started to sip the drink which was warming my body. Ella blushed as she rubbed her eyes with the back of her hands.

“Zayn is going to introduce me to his family.”

“Good for you.” I grinned happily as I pulled her to a hug.

“Thank you for everything, Case.”

“What are you thanking for?”

“Without you, Zayn and I won’t—”

“As much as I want to take the credit, I can’t. Me, being friends with Zayn, was already planned by God.”

“Wow. That’s deep. I bet you and Zayn had private lessons.” She winked and laughed. I guffawed, my hand on my stomach. How could this girl joke about her friend and boyfriend being together privately? Shaking my head, I sighed and looked at nowhere in particular.

“When is the flight, Case?”

“3 days from now. I’m really proud of myself that I haven’t told you about my plan.”

“Yes. That is so not you. Why rush things, though? I mean, Christmas is 2 weeks from now. December 11 is too early.” She muttered quickly which made me smile.

“You’re just going to miss me, you idiot.” I punched her playfully on her arm and she let out a soft “ouch” while massaging it. I giggled as I emptied the mug I was holding.

These past few weeks were a blur. I managed to move on slowly, though. I thought to myself this… I’ve been living for 19 years in this world before I met Liam. I’ve been breathing for 2 decades. If he doesn’t need me, okay. I don’t need someone who will just make me fall for him and left me hanging. Or that’s what I just thought.

I still don’t know what the secret is but I’m okay with it now. I’ll just wait for the right time. Zayn and I are on good terms once again. Harry, Louis and Niall didn’t do anything wrong so we’re really good friends while Liam.. Liam? We talk to each other now. We’re buddies again but not closer like last time. There are still times that we find it very awkward that we’re on the same place but everything’s cool.

“So, did you already pack?”

“Yeah. Finished.”

“And I didn’t know?”

“You’re always out with Zayn, sweetie.”

“You got a problem with that, bro?” She said with angst, raising her eyebrows. I made a poker face as I was reaching for a pillow. I hit her repeatedly as she was shrieking at the top of her lungs.

“HEY HEY, WHAT’S HAPPENING?!” I heard someone shout with a thick accent. The door flew open and I saw Zayn, eyes full of panic, panting. Ella and I shared glances before we laughed out loud. He looked at us, eyebrows furrowed. Closing the door, he sat beside Ella and wrapped his arms around her. “You scared the hell out of me.”

“I’m sorry, babe.” She replied, touching Zayn’s face.

“Ewww.” I opened my mouth and pretend that I was puking. Both of them laughed while Zayn’s nose was rubbing Ella’s cheek. To be honest, these 2 can make a great family. I really have this instinct that they will marry each other someday. I stood up and excused myself, leaving them cuddling on the couch.




“Mind helping me with the luggages, Case?” I looked back and saw Niall having a hard time holding my bags. I laughed out loud and smirked at him, shrugging.

“You asked for that.”

“I’m taking it back.” He said, breathing in and out swiftly, grasping for some air. Harry and Kim were on his back, walking while holding hands. Zayn and Ella were talking and joking around while Eleanor and Louis were arguing over El’s homework. Liam, on the other hand, was carrying one of my bags.

“You can’t take it back, Horan. That’s just… mean.”

“Mean is looking at your friend dying slowly because he’s carrying your bags.” He pouted as he carried my 2 bags once again with some difficulties. Seeing him annoyed is actually one of the cutest and funniest things in the world. “What have you put on these bags, by the way? Your whole apartment?”

Liam laughed as he snatched one bag from Niall rapidly, shaking his head. I smiled at him as he put the strap of the bag on his shoulder. Walking again, I scanned my inbox which was full of my parents’ messages saying they can’t wait to see me again.

Flight 39A.. Flight 39A.. London to Singapore.. London to Singapore.. Your flight is on 10 minutes.


I stopped walking and turned around, facing these people who brought more colors to my life these past 6 months.

“This is me, then.”

I hugged each one of them including Liam. I missed his hug so much that it brought an overwhelming ecstasy to my body, making me smile involuntarily. As he stepped backward to let go of me, he smiled and gave me my bags.

“I’m really sorry for everything, Case.”

“Don’t mention it. Past is past.”

“Seems like you’ve been with Zayn, eh?” He said cockily, wiggling his eyebrows.

“For Pete’s sake, why do you guys always say that? Zayn is just like a brother to me.” I whined jokingly, carrying my bags.

“That’s what Selena Gomez said about Justin Bieber.” Harry winked and all of them laughed. I was about to throw the luggages at him when the announcer reminded the passengers of Flight 39A once again. I raised my hand and waved at them.

“Be careful, Case. We will miss you.” Niall hugged me once again.

“I will. I’ll miss you too, you morons.”

“Thank you for the compliment, Case. Much appreciated.” Louis said sarcastically, hugging me.

“Don’t listen to him. He’s just sassy. That’s all.” Eleanor rolled her eyes and smiled, pecking my cheek.

“We’ll see you in a month, then?” Kim asked, smiling at me. I nodded and the announcer reminded the people again. I arranged the bags I was holding and saluted them all. They smiled and waved at me. Ella, with a huge grin on her face, gave me 2 thumbs up.

Before turning my back to them, Liam’s eyes caught my attention. It was full of regret, fear, sadness and… longing. I don’t even know why I said those words but they fit the emotions on his eyes perfectly. I sighed and started walking, biding my goodbye to London, whispering, “I’ll be back in a month. Don’t miss me too much”.


Should Have Kissed You- Chapter 31 

Chapter 31

Niall’s P.O.V.

“What have I done to receive this?” Casey said, burying her face on her hands. We’ve been here, outside of their apartment, for half an hour now but she still doesn’t want to go back. I can’t stand seeing her like this. It’s like I’m seeing my girlfriend cry and I can feel that all of this was my fault. I opened the door and went out the car, sniffing the air.

All I wanted was for the boys to have peaceful lives but they made it harder. All I wanted was for Liam to be in a relationship with Casey already but he was too hard-headed. All I wanted was for Zayn to forget the past and just move on but he brought it all up. I don’t regret living with them, though. I know their anger towards each other will vanish somehow. I just don’t know how and when.

“Niall..”

I turned around and saw Casey wiping the tears on her face. I handed my handkerchief to her and she used it, rubbing it on her face. I pulled her and hugged her tight, rubbing her back. I know words can’t comfort her right now and I really don’t know what to say. Things are complicated than ever and I don’t want to obfuscate them more. Casey was still sobbing but it was quieter now.

“Everything will be okay, Case.”

“I thought he loved me.. I’m so gullible.”

“No, you’re not.”

“I am. I’m so gullible. I hate myself. I hate myself.” She hit her head repeatedly and it took me seconds to stop her. She frowned as I gripped her hands. “I want you to tell me the truth.”

“What truth?” I asked, letting her hands go. She breathed heavily and exhaled. Opening her eyes, she looked at me intently and in that moment, I already knew what she was about to ask. I diverted my focus to the car but I was still waiting for her. “Why did Zayn react like that? I know he’s my friend and everything but what he did to Li—”

“He has his reasons.” I cut her off, looking at my shoes.

“What reasons?”

“I am in no right position to tell you that. It’s not mine to say.”

“Please, Nialler.. I need to know.”

“No.”

“Is he in love with me?”

My eyes widened and I looked at her weirdly. “What are you talking about?”

“I mean he defended me and everything. He called Liam a bastard. He said Liam doesn’t know how to stand firm. Maybe he was in love with—-”

“HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!” I started to laugh, holding my stomach. Now, this is funny. I think Casey is losing her wits. I wiped the tear from my eye, still chuckling. She raised her eyebrows, hands on her pockets.

“What’s funny?”

“Did you hear yourself?”

“Yes. I said maybe Zayn is in—”

“HAHAHAHAHAHA!” I laughed louder, sitting down on the ground. After recovering from her words, I stood up and made a serious face. Clearing my throat, I smiled genuinely. “You’re crazy.”

“I was just—”

“Zayn is really in love with your best friend, Case. He is not a player.”

She blushed, looking at the ground. I smirked and sighed, scratching my head. She giggled softly and I chuckled. “Seeing those 2 fighting might have ruined my brain for a moment.”

“Obviously.” I rolled my eyes playfully and smirked. “You need to go now, Case. I’ll bring your Ipod tomorrow, I swear. For now, good night.”

“Night Nialler. Thank you, by the way.” She kissed my cheek and I just nodded.

“Night, Case. Don’t pressure yourself. Not tonight.” I reminded her thoughtfully. She bopped her head and turned her back to me. She walked away from me, leaving me alone outside the apartment.

As much as I want to tell Casey everything, I can’t. I’m not that kind of person. I want to help her and everything but I really really can’t. She’s been a great help to me and Raika and to the boys, too. This is for the best and she needs to hear the truth from Liam himself so all things will be clear. My phone beeped and I got it out of my pocket.

From: Liam Payne

Is she home now?

Where are you?

I need to talk to you.


Is your heart taken? Is there somebody else on your mind? I’m so sorry, I’m so confused. Just tell me, am I out of time?